Blog Rut Continues

Blah, Blah, Blah

That's what I feel about my life in general right now. Nothing to brag about, nothing to write home about, just life, just generic.

There have been things going on around my home that have totally consumed my thoughts though. Trouble in paradise. I almost threw in the towel with my marriage, but after a lot of soul searching and listening, I have decided that I want to fight for it. Life just gets in the way so much.

My husband is the best husband any girl could ask for- you know how I talk about him all the time and put him on a pedastol as my friend says. Well, to me, that is where he should be in the HUSBAND department. Now in the FATHER department, there is much room for improvement and I could take days telling you all about how he grew up in a cold alcoholic home and how he was raised that children should be seen not heard, etc., etc. It is much too much to really go into right now, just know that he never had a family life to draw positive experiences from. Me on the other hand, was raised in a very loving home. My parents are still married after 55 years of marriage and even though my daddy didn't always say the words "I love you" he made darn sure there was no doubt in your mind. I have wonderful, fond memories of sitting in my dad's lap, him rocking me up and down on his foot playing "ride a little horsey" and going everywhere he did- sale barns, on the tractor, stomping cotton, to Mer Rouge for some good ole fashioned mixed ice cream on a cone. I was a Daddy's girl through and through until I got to be an adult and started to see something totally different in my mom than just someone telling me to clean my room and iron my clothes. We bonded and got close.

Anyhow, back from my stroll down memory lane... Studmuffin has many issues when it comes to kids and being sociable. He's come such a long way from 7 years ago when we married. We went into this marriage with my two children from a previous marriage, a teenage boy and a little girl; and his two young children who got to see their mother act like a raving lunatic through their divorce and our remarriage. I'll have to blog about that saga at another time. Then she unexpectedly died 3 years later and so we have had this blended family that we have tried to put together with Elmer's glue and it didn't work out like the fairy tale I wanted. So, I have to loose the fairytale and be realistic and make the best from what I have.

I know it is going to take work and giving on all of our parts and a lot of prayers and openmindedness.

Well, the principal just came over the PA and said if we want to leave we can.... like we wouldn't take her up on that one. So I'm outa here for right now.