Monday...UGH

I have so much to do this week.
Both SR and N have orthodontist appointments this morning so that will take up most of today. Then cooking, cleaning and class will take up the remainder of my week. The kids are out of school all week, so I will have to find something to keep them occupied.

On Wednesday, I will have my third child in braces. Good grief. But I am not complaining because when I was growing up, my parents could not afford anything but the dire necessities and braces, fashionable clothes and other things every teenager things important were definitely not defined as necessary in their book. Don't get me wrong, I was spoiled rotten and usually got anything I wanted within their means, I certainly did not do without- but the things that matter to girls these days were unheard of.

So,if it means braces, Proactive for acne, going to Goodwill or Ross' to find the name brand clothes at prices I can afford, then that's what it will be. Oh how I wish I could just go to the mall and buy them whatever struck their fancy- but its just not happening on a teacher/cop salary.

Which brings me to the topic that I wrote about in a few blogs back. Sometimes it is really scary that my friend J and I get on the same wavelength, in which we are right now on several things.

For several weeks now, I have been on such a selfish kick where I am sick of living within my means (okay, maybe just above- but its not all my fault) and I really want to be able to build the log home of my dreams with a porch all the way around, be able to decorate it the way I want, no holds barred. I want my kids to be able to wear the latest fashions and have a pair of shoes to match every outfit. Oh how I wish I would win the lottery. Okay, so I know I am in dreamland but some people have this dream and I don't know how they got there. I have worked my butt off to become profoundly educated to make a whopping $600 more a year. How rewarding is that? Anyhow, I won't go on with my sob story, but the thing is, how do you stop wanting to live like the Jones' and enjoy living like you live- now in the present. Don't get me wrong, I have a nice home that we are fixing up a little bit, wear nice clothes, have a beautiful piece of land that I love and drive nice vehicles; we are definitely not destitute and have life much better than most. I guess I just want more and I feel so selfish and greedy and guilty- so many have lost everything and here I am whining about wanting more.

Okay, I gotta get off of that subject, because that last paragraph makes me sound like a selfish little whining winch- which is so not me on an average day. But the one thing I love about this blog thing is that you can put in words what you are feeling even though sometimes it makes you wonder what kind of person you are.

Well, gotta go get the youngins in gear.
I know one thing, if I don't find someone to float this dang sheetrock today, it is going to be on! I have a Christmas tree to put up dadgum it!
Have a happy Monday all!