Dumbfounded....

Have you ever had one of those days where all you did was squall like a blubbering idiot? Well, that is the day I am having today. This week has been a rough one for me: in a nutshell, my dad is in the hospital and two friends have lost their lives.

It started Saturday when J and I were out shopping. My mom called me to tell me that a childhood friend, one I went to school with and was very close to when I was younger (she moved away in high school), had been found in a pool of blood dead in her kitchen. It is presumed she hemorraged to death but the autopsy report is not back yet. Wendy leaves a grieving father, husband and two young children behind. Her funeral will probably be tomorrow.

My birthday was yesterday and what a day it was. Luckily, i celebrated it on Sunday- good thing. Long story short, I worked all day and when I got off, my sister called me saying that my dad was back at the hospital (he had a total knee replacement on the 3rd) with a possible clot or something. He was gasping for any air he could get, his leg was hurting and had a burning in his chest. They are doing a lot of tests, but we haven't gotten the results back yet. He looked so bad when I got there and was so very weak. He had tears coming down his eyes, my mom told me, she thinks he was really scared he was dying. I stayed at the hospital till about 9:30. I hated to leave dad and my mom but I did against my better judgment. As I was headed home, J called to tell me there had been a fatal wreck in the town we live in but they had not released the name pending notification. Well her and her "vibes" said that whoever it is, we will know them...

I call mom this morning and she says he had a pretty good night but no results as of 6am this morning. I didn't sleep well worrying. She says "Did you see the news this morning?"- I usually don't watch news- but anyhow, she proceeds to tell me that another friend who I grew up with in church and dated his best friend in high school had been killed in the car wreck. Our "crew" was virtually inseperable during our high school years and he was like a brother during that time. We grew apart because of the different life paths we chose but nonetheless, he is special in my heart-Dustin leaves behind a wife and I think two young children.

So all these events have led to me asking why all these people who are my age are dying. I can't help but wonder who is next. It always seems to happen in threes... then J's baby cousin is in NICU- her cord was wrapped around her neck and had some complications. Dear Lord, please take care of all of these sick and those who have lost their loved ones. My heart goes out to those children who have lost a mommy and daddy and the wife and husband that has to go on without them...We certainly are not guaranteed tomorrow.